What are you trying to do God?

Ok bloggers-

So, I realize that there are hundreds of thousands of people out there who are suffering, struggling, laid off, homes foreclosed, etc. I am truly thankful to God for having a job, but what is he trying to do?

I just left my previous company that I've been with for 2 1/2 years. My position was Office Coordinator, but I had a LOT on my plate. That title also included me answering phones, serving as my boss's Administrative assistant, managing the office, IT, vendors, supplies...and the list goes on and on and on. I wasn't valued and I felt like I was ignored when I asked for a growth opportunity in the organiztion and relief in some areas so my concentration can be more on what my job required the most-office management. So after 2 1/2 years, it was time for me to move on.

I have been wanting something in the government for a while now, so I figured I would start under a government contract. I've been here for a week now, and I'm like....umm, ok. I mean, I knew the government would be different, but I am just now getting my computer, I have no phone, no free coffee or water...LOL... and I feel like people are already trying to breathe down my neck. Maybe it's just me, I don't know. Maybe I just need to get used to it, that's all.

But I'm wondering- God what are you trying to do. Why am I working this 9 to 5 stuff, working for ungrateful people (some of them), and remaining unhappy when I have so many talents and gifts I can work from. And if I don't like this 9 to 5 stuff, why am I getting my degree in Business Administration? Is it to prepare me to start my own business??? God's plan is confusing sometimes, but I will continue to wait on Him.

Here are my interests: Music, singing, youth, make-up, shopping, eating- I love to sing and I teach music. I love young people. I love make-up and putting make-up on and now starting to put make-up on others and I love to shop and eat. Is God making provisions for me to explore these hobbies and make them careers? Am I not seeing the signs? I know one thing! I need to get in His face and His Word and study and actively seek what his plans are for me. Because I can't continue to be unhappy. I mean, don't get me wrong, while I am on these jobs, I guarantee that I will work the best to my ability, do my work and obey my superiors because I understand God's commandments in the place of employment.

I love you God. Continue to pour into me and show me the ways to go in this life.